Lost court case...

Need to move out by 10/3. Will take only essentials and sheriff dept will throw all else to curb. How sad,especially when landlord has a 1 BR apt available at end of month as neighbors movede out yesterday. She blows. What a witch and liar as said I could stay as know. Judge was viscious in court too,Tanya. Had hoped not to get her. Found motel in E. Durham,Erin and Melody's that takes section 8,pets and has some people there on it so most likely will go ther but place not available til 2 weeks from now so will have to pay to stay in a motel and possibly for a storage site til get place and for move to storage. How can I do that if need to pay rent at motel even with subsidy and for pet deposit? Should be interesting to see how all works out.

Now, need to leave again.

My landlord,presently, can't make up her mind. She just said how we need to get section 8 out promptly to see place so get section 8 to pay my rent subsidy. Next day she says place won't pass inspection as is as we already know so nw I need to go so she can reclaim prossion of the place. She sings a different tune daily so don't know where am at one minute to the next. I need new storm windows as have but 2 out of 10 windows,new roof as buckled and water damage to walls causing mold which is killing my sinuses as 'sick building' syndrome. Yet she got full rent this month to live in a dump! Adult protective services,Cairo building dept.,social services and advocate through brain association of nys,coarc,common ground etc. , won't help in any way until my stuff is thrown on the curb,with pets and self,then end up in welfare motel which I have to pay daily for until money exhausted. Who pays to put my things in storage? No one I guess so will have nothing but what can pack in duffle bag,back pack. how sad.

Closer to... SANE!: Rain

Closer to... SANE!: Rain: Spam deleted. Rain While we need it, We don't need it every day, But, it's been pouring daily, fr...

have cellulitis still...

on my arms contracted from itching my poison ivy and rinsing dirty old bottles dug up from old dump sites,for money,from selling them. Dipped arms in dirty water and toxins,bacteria,staph,got into my body,ery serious,swelled,painful. Am taking antibiotics for it so better but still there as itchy and scratch and gets red again,swells. Just need to give it time. had made a poultice of apple cidar vinegar and hot water and dipped gauze in it an applied to wounds but may have been too strong and burned it.

Rain

Spam deleted. Rain While we need it, We don't need it every day, But, it's been pouring daily, from where I sit, Watching the drops of water fall and trees sway, With the wind blowing their branches and leaves falling, Instead of for rain, I pray for a sunny day, Listening to birds sing, Feeling the warmth of the sun, Not the coolness of the clouds in the sky, Then I can get something done, Outside, tidying up, I'll try, For now the streets are soaked with rain, Buckets of the stuff have filled my flower pots, It has now become a pain, As sun too is needed for fruit,crops,trees and forget me nots, So now instead of a rain dance, I will wish for a sunny sky, As I watch the animals prance, From my window by and by, Yes, it's high time for some sun, I long for it's warmth on my face, and the summer fun, It's vibrant glow on this place, That now is wet and dull, The streets resemble a ghost town, Empty and the sounds are at a lull, No activity can be seen in this now from all around, The rain seems to have washed away the people as well, As watered the ground and soil, The air is heavy with a damp smell, Soon, men will toil, Under the hot sun's rays, On roofs,fields,streets, They will seem as if in a daze, While others complain of the heat, And wish that it would rain, Forgeting that, that's all it's done, For days now and not the shining of the summer sun. Thundering like the sound of a distant train. Yes, all it does here now, Is rain.

Are you shy?

If so, it doesn't mean anything is wrong with you but is a personality type that prefers solitude,quiet over being with other noisy people all the time talking. Unfortunately with so many extroverts,nervy,obnoxious,overbearing,intolerant,dumb people about,it is easy to think we are odd,b ad mouth us nearby so we hear it, as told so often since young probably and unpopular,perhaps friendless and even may be unemployed as hard to hold a job if scared of who work with,nervous,stressed to deal socially with strangers,different personalities,especially if find intimidating bec ause impolite,poorly raised,lacking in social graces and insulted by what rude things others say and do and keep grudges and records! How to cope and overcome so can succeed inspite of thoughts,feelings and antisocial behavior? Be more accepting,lower expectations,of self, others,be where will have to interact,don't compare, judge others,self,don't complain,mope,feel self pity,worry. Careers for those inately shy like me are artists,writers,farm,animal workers(feed horses,cows,pigs,pets in shelter,vet's office,farm)muck stalls,pet cages,plant seeds,harvest,auto towers, proof reader,counselor,advisor. More jobs here . Click link.

Troubled?

If you struggle with emotional,mental problems as I and many have for years,these links will be a gift to you. They are from my favorite Christian preachers,Charles Stanley and joyce myer. They are dynamic speakers and offer FREE videos and reading material unlike others who are out for your money like Joel Osteen and his Big Calvary church, the largest one in the USA. I guarantee these videos and these sites will lift your mood and lead you in a positi ve direction to heal what ails you. Often times it is a troubled past,namely hurts from loved ones such as family ,friends,peers. They may hae said,done things that hurt our feelings,self worth and ha e left us scarred til this day. many believe the lies they were told that they are 'no good' and don't live their best lies but instead are unhappy,doing drugs,drink,are promiscuous,in an unhealthy relationship and so on.. is this what we are here for? no, i don't think so. i believe we are here to enjoy our lives,find our divine purpose and live it serving others and the Lord,making a difference in this world and being remembered by the lives we have changed and touched. Recoery inc. is a self help support group for those with mental problems who struggle with troubling emotions of fear,anger,anxiety,panic. They meet across the US,in CN and Ireland currently. I attend a weekend meeting by teleconference from my home on Sundays, 3:30 PM EST. phone numb er is on the web site and code to punch in to jo9in meeting. in ti me get the book out of the library 'Mental health Through Will Training' by Dr. Abraham Low,written in the 1930's for his patients for them to review when not in session with hi m. The book as quotes you can cling to whe n in symptoms so you c an cope such as 'move a muscle,change a thought','we are a capable lot but we paralyze oursel ves with fear','inner approval is more important than outer approal','symptoms are to be bravely faced,hum bly born and tolerated' and so on. I strongly recommend this program to anyone afflicted with these problems to prevent frequent hospitalizations,suicide,incarceration,homelessness,divorc e,domestic violence and so on. It changes lies and it's free!